Happy 60th Wedding Anniversary Granny and Papa...

When you die, do you still celebrate your anniversary? I was wondering this today as it would be my granny and papa's 60th wedding anniversary. He died a year ago on July 22nd. This time last year was a truly horrific time for me. I've handled it better than I thought I would this month. They've been married twice as long as I've been alive. That's a long time. Will I have 60 years with the same person? Hmmm...I hope so. :)

This brings me to my thoughts on my trip to Chiaramonti. The wreck kind of put a wrench into things. I'm trying to CONTROL everything around me. I need to stop because, well, let's face it, sometimes we aren't in control of everything, sometimes others actions cause us to sit back and wait. I'm happy to say that I am planning on leaving October 1st. If nothing else happens. I'm very excited. VERY VERY excited. Mostly because I'm very happy that GF wants to let me see his life and the way he has lived for almost 30 years. (Even if it took a little nudging from his friends...GRAZIE!!! hehe) I'm taking it one day at a time and it will happen...it will all come into place I just have to be patient. Which sometimes, with all that is in my life, I run a little short of.

I try to make sense of this "situation" sometimes. Well, when I say situation that makes it sound kind of bad. It's in no way what I mean. I said something last night then I took it back. I say now, with certainty with all that has happened in my short life that I KNOW for a fact that something like this doesn't happen to people everyday. It surely doesn't happen to me. Though others have their opinions (people are very opinionated aren't they? especially when it doesn't concern them, no?) and their opinions are usually VERY negative lets face it. This doesn't take away from the fact that what we have is very special...a very special friendship, relationship, the happiness we share. I'm human and I've taken certain things personally sometimes when I obviously shouldn't have. One of these days very soon there will not be any uncertainty between us...then all we have to face at that point is....PAPERS...the bureaucratic bull shit we must deal with.

I'm not going to count days I suppose because I want to take one day at a time, that way if something happens I won't be so disappointed as I was when I was in the wreck. So, one day at a time, is another day closer to being with you.

I've a strong faith, and I do very much believe that everything happens for a reason. All the bad things that have happened to me for a reason. It makes me appreciate the good ones that much more. GF you're very important to me. You're the most important person to me (besides my boys, which is in a totally different manner of being important to me) you make me laugh and smile and you make me very happy. My life has really changed, and it continues to change, and I can't wait for those changes to come. So shoot me for saying all of this, but who really reads this anyhow besides maybe my friends or your friends and most everyone knows anyhow, even if they don't tell you they know. We're both like giddy little kids when it comes to the other. I like it this way. You know where my heart lies and how I feel, you know what I want and what I expect. I'm waiting to come and see you, and share a small portion of your life there. It's not long now, we've waited all this time a few more months won't kill me, or us...plus I can't wait to talk about house things with Ste or remodeling or anything to do with all of that....and to drink "something" sitting outside of the bar...it's the simple things in life, the stupid little things I think of that I want the most....that mean the most to me....like drinking something with you and your friends sitting outside a bar in a tiny little village over 7,000 miles from me. SO....save me a seat, I'll be there soon....